I have Bipolar 1 Disorder and ADHD. I am not Bipolar 1 and ADHD.
There is a distinction.
I started experiencing depressions in junior high. My family was having struggles with two of my siblings and since my sister and I (both adopted) were just two weeks apart we shared not only the same grade in school but many of the same classes. This closeness in age, but not the closeness of sibling, took a toll.
By the time I was at University mania made its presence well known.
I am writing two memoirs about my experiences. The first is about life up until age forty, the second starts with my debilitating breakdown and moves through therapy, medications, and my search for stability and contentment. I arrive in my perfect life in San Miguel de Allende with the love of my life and a life I could only dream of.
Bipolar 1 Disorder is not mood swings and a very happy outlook. Nor is it a day in bed during a gloomy afternoon. Bipolar 1 affects every fiber of my being and can take over my mind and body with life-altering consequences. It is not something I can pull myself out of, or can “just hang in there” with.
Weeks in bed burrowed into my covers and hurting worse than any bad flu, a month of 1 hour of sleep nights, and a beyond grandiose attitude were mixed with times of “normality.”
Bipolar Disorder seems to be the flavor of the month for writers. Many are glamorizing mental illness. With regard to their writing, I have read articles or book blurbs where the author added this disorder to make a character more interesting or as a character flaw. If someone does not have this disorder they need to be very cautious about writing a character with it.
I don’t think I could do an honest and realistic job in writing about Bipolar 1 unless I had experienced it first hand. And, each person is different, each day is different so blanket statements can’t be made. And a savior has to be oneself, learning to cope and create a life that is right for them. Not comparing themselves to others.
We cannot be cured, we don’t choose it and platitudes are just going to make us angry. Someone with Bipolar Disorder has to make changes and struggle to do the work to get to a point where they can first live, and then thrive with the disorder. It takes a lot of time, effort, and support.
I hope my writing will help move the dialog along.